I'm confused

Am I who I am years back?
Have I changed for the better or the worst?
I would think it's the latter.

I've lost what I called Life.
I've lost happiness or simply cheerfulness
What's wrong with me, I know not.
I'm becoming weaker, more drawn back,
less approachable, and I'm just living each day routinely.

I'm a confused kid and mentally malfunctioning.
I may need to see a psychiatrist soon to tune me back to reality.
Or maybe it is just me.

Chrysanthemum tea, green tea, ice lemon tea?
I know not which to choose.
KFC, Carl's Junior, Macdonald's?
You decide.
Nice shorts? No?
Alright. I won't buy.
I'm easily influenced, I'm indecisive and I'm too dependent.
I've lost my own opinion, lost my confidence and my sense of self and importance.
Most of the time I prefer to be hiding in one corner or be transparent to people.
If only I possess the power of being invisible, life would be great.

If I die, would anyone notice that I'm missing?
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Would you?